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Crimson_SaKe
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Country: United States
Interests: Stuff.
More Stuff.
- Anime.
- Art.
- Coffee.
- Comedy.
- Concerts.
- Cooking.
- Djarum Kretek Cigarettes.
- Drawing.
- Drinking.
- Driving.
- Expression.
- Friends.
- Hanging Out.
- The Macabre.
- Manga.
- Marlboro.
- Money.
- Movies.
-Music.
- Nature.
- Poetry.
- Photography.
- Reading.
- Relaxation.
- Smirnoff.
- Smoking.
- Tea.
- Video games.
- The Internet.
- The city.
Expertise: Cigarettes and coffee! And breathing.
Occupation: Cashier & Lineman
Industry: Food Services
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
9/3/2004
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| It's been a really long time.
I've started school again anew, changing my major, as well as other things in my life.
I haven't blogged in a long time, so much has happened, it all felt one long blur trying to fut in a short time frame.
Happiness, sadness, depression, anger, torment, heartache, suffering.
Losing friends.
Finding new friends.
Learning more about life and how good things must come to an end.
That feeling of being alone even when you're surrounded by people you know, even if they're friends.
Losing someone I thought I liked to someone I thought was my friend.
Finding Kristina, my girlfriend, spending time with her Italian family (-_-), excessive Italian food (._.), and drinking lots but never getting wasted over the holidays(^_^).
Buying LOTS of stuff from south street.
Buying LOTS of food.
Spending LOTS of money.
Spending the entire holiday break with my sweetheart <3.
Sometimes all you need is to know that you're loved and appreciated by someone, and nothing else really matters <3.
It took years, but I finally found someone I truly love without having to fear the hurt of loss.
I doubt I'll blog again within a month, but I can certainly try.
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| i'mmmmm soooo buzzed drunked
lolololol i danced with random people
lindas a babe and shes like 45 or 50
HOTTEST CRAZIEST WOEMAN EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRrrrrr
cori was a blast and danced with me and got me like two amoro sours or three
her sis amnda got me 2
her other sister got me 3
katie got me one and a rum and coke
i don tthink i like rum and coke
i payed hackysack
wedding receptions are fun
i found out im okay at dancing (or was that only cause i was drunk and thought i was)
wilbert danced too hes soooo cool
n lik
some chick wrote her number on my hand
imma call her back and get myspace photos
lolsauce the food was terrible though
the OEPN BAR WASN'T THOUGH
next time imma gonna try a da kahlua mudlside thing
whatsever its calleds
tokiskwisgarmurdertool
congratulations mike and maria! wedding was pretty if not compeltely what i wasnt expecting
cori rob joey jimmy some random kids sonem random gay kids katie amanda wilbert mr archdeacon
thereasa linda i dunno there were a lotta people and i had funsicles
lolololol
i danced to like oldies and weird hip 80's music but it was fun
BUT
catholic weddings are weird im not gona lie or anyething whatever whatever ill do what i want you're a bitch
booze
im not drunk i swear
look theres hadrly any tyops
k night huns
imma go to bed and call my girl
lol
tits.
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| - Entities So many things can go terribly wrong at a moment's notice.
When they do, you can feel the rage build and consume you.
Sometimes it takes so little to set you off, and sometimes it takes a lot. Some people know how to hit just the right spot.
And this spot, hit so many times, like a wall, can break.
Disrespect.
Disrespect me, and you're as dead to me as the rest of the world. I can take a lease, no problem, god knows I'm practically asking for it, but when you undermine my character, my morals, my ethics, my being, my values, me as a whole, you've gone too far.
Especially if it's a friend.
You're asking to have me beat your face in, curb stomp you, then drag you through the street on the back of a car.
Don't think because I'm standing there in silence I don't understand. I'm just wondering how to physically and emotionally destroy you until you're a lifeless husk.
This pain. It drives me.
It doesn't matter how long I've known you.
Mistreat me and I will do the same.
I don't need shit in my life. No more despair, or anguish..
I already have enough crap to deal with. It might not be the worst thing in the world, but I don't need it.
Already all of us have to try to forge a better life out of the shadows, drawling, and gasping through air from the shadows of fell for so long only to catch glimpses of light, a promise from a future that may never come.
Why do we struggle?
Change can only reach so many.
We can't change the murderous pedophiles or rapists.
We can't cnahe the corrupt politicians and greedy corporate entities.
We can't change the depressing state of mind of the people around us.
I would see them all hang.
Their mournful, apologetic tears would mean so much, steaming down faces quickly losing color and blood.
But death is scarcely an apology.
It's all so depressing, almost enough to make you cry.
In reality, it should give you the strength to move on and see the world around you for what it is.
Don't cross me.
Don't disrespect me.
I can't promise I won't one day make you regret ever having known me.
One day, talk won't just be talk anymore.
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| - Glass skinDir en grey TLA 11 11 2008Dir en grey at the TLA (Theatere of Living Arts) 11-11-08, NOVEMBER 11 2008.
Shout out to all the fab chicks and dudesI met if you ever see this.
Viva
Hattie
Sandy
Acki
Chrstina
Peggy
Mackenzie
Erin
Girl I almost bought cigars with who walked to me to closed cigar store
Girl with Acid in Her Phone Who Gave Me Apple Juice
Girl with awesome white and red contacts
Group of girls from that college blasting DEG on that itouch
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| - The Real Folk BluesTired.CONCERT TOMORROW!
Technically. In like, 42 hours or so.
So stoked.
I'm gonna need a drink to calm me down.
I think I'll go smoke a cigarette.
I really hope we can make it work, I need a car really bad though.
She's so cute, and such a sweet heart.
Possibly the sweetest girl I know, and she's really cute.
Wait, I said that twice.
We have a lot in common, too!
But she's like 30 minutes away by car...
(stop smoking weed and I'll stop smoking cigarettes)
Kay, time to look for a new job.
Random
Coherent journal logs will no longer be necessary.
Thinking of switching to blogger or livejournal, where communities still exist.
Dunno.
<emorantznow>
I really like you, Ashley.
I'd do whatever I could to make it work out between us, hun.
You'll probably never read this, and I don't want you to, but whenever I think of you I can't think of anything else and all my worries no longer matter.
Noone.
Nothing,
Only you.
I just don't want to fall too hard.
Deep breaths.
Take it slow.
We both don't want to rush into anything.
But this burning sensation, it consumes me as I'm sure it does you, my darling.
If we have to, let's burn together.
Let our flame light the night.
Not poetry, just how I feel.
< /emorantznow>
Wilbert said he'd beat me up if I did any more or that emo drinking shit again, and I don't blame him. He's like my big brother. Even if we don't hang out all that much, I'm glad he's my friend.
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